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As I sit in the kitchen, at the bar, with my cup of coffee, bobby d's DESIRE blairing in the background to make up for the absence of people on this saturday morning,

Patrick is running from one end up the dining room towards the kitchen and leaping over the top of Negrito who is lying on the ground, and to the end of the kitchen, only to turn around and do it again. He skims the air right above Negrito, who gets very irritated and flustered, and tries to swipe him, claws extended. He's doing it over and over and over again.
Saturday morning fun.

This just in.

Chai latte's from the french cafe on gay street: ummmmm good.

Things I am excited about this morning:

Patrick.
He's real cute, he speaks a funny language to me that I understand, he is picturesque pretty much ALL the time, he is resourceful and likes to attack Negrito. YES. Oh, and he comes to greet me in the morning, runs to my bedroom door, jumps on the bed, meows, and promptly snuggles down under the covers while I'm getting ready. !

MOMIX.
They are coming to ashville in November. Its expensive. But I'm going. Anyone else want to go? I you tubed them... and something in my soul woke up from being sleepy.

School.
Kicked ass on my first test. 97. Only 3 a's in the class. Uh-huh.

Music.
Doing a show with Joseph, on October 16. Tyler is opening, and it is going to be a magical, magical night. Had practice w/ Joseph last night. Even that was magical.

Aunt Betty.
AL is doing most of the heavy lifting now, so I get to just go and visit sometimes, no work involved. I love having AL there. I love having AL and aunt betty and jon the landscaper sitting and talking. I was reflecting on how much I love aunt betty. How she is one of my best friends. How grieved I am that she is 85 and will not be here for my whole life. I am excited just to go and hang out, like I am about hanging out with any other friend.

My house.
I just love being there. Its cool, and friendly, and slick, and homey, and artsy, and has soul. And it has Samantha. And I like her. Oh, and it has my huge brass bed. I love my huge brass bed. I sleep like a baby, thanks to Josh and God. ;)

Christmas holidays.
BABY!! no school! christmas trees! scarfs! boots! fireplace! parties! BABY!!!

Leettle update..

Lo, and be- HOLd! My folgers coffee is pretty good this morning!! Shock and awe.

So. Think I got four or five out of fifty wrong on my test. And then I think I got two bonus questions right. So. Sort of okay I think. I wanted to get 100. But I couldn't remember that "lateral" was the opposing term to "medial". Shoot.

But I sure as hell knew what "hyaline connective tissue" was, and I recognized it in the microscope, and I knew it was in the trachea. Speaking of the trachea... I learned some really interesting stuff last night about smoking. More on that later, when pigs fly. :)

I have a test in the Lecture part of the class this coming thursday. On chemistry stuff. Scary.

This just in...

i'm a lot sad tonite, but i'm pretending i'm not.

Really like this.

One of my favorite quotes.

"I have days that begin with a makeshift hopefulness and then run into the ground, and I have days in which I remember something true in the morning and write it on my arm so that I’ll know what to do when I get lost. Which I will. God, like a parent in the mall, writing down His information on my arm so that I remember who I belong to when I run away and am accosted by strangers."

Thoughts I've been having lately.

So I started school again. I didn't think I would ever be starting school again. I mean, it was in the back of my head somewhere..but I didn't really think it would ever happen. Funny how there is a sense, when you are in school, that there is a big, slow ball rolling towards something. Towards being done. And even though I just now started, and have a long, long ways to go, I feel the ball. I feel a little bit of energy in "getting done". Or just moving forward. There is a goal, an end. I am working towards it. Its such a different thing to have in your life than just today stretching into next week stretching into next year and next decade... Its nice.
I also am finding it really fun and easy to study. Granted, I haven't had any tests yet, so I don't know how good of a job studying I am really doing... but for some reason, I am absolutely LOVING memorizing the parts of a cell. I want to know. I want to know so much more than they are even telling me! I want to know WHY a ribosome synthesizes proteins. I want to know HOW cells know when they need to commit cell-suicide. I want to know I want to know! I want to know about the heart. And why people have such a hard time with them. I love love love reading my books. I can't WAIT to become specialized. In something. ANything.
If anyone wants to go to java or golden roast with me, please let me know. I don't like studying alone...but i'm up for going pretty much any afternoons or evenings.

More thoughts I've been having lately: Church.
So we need accountability. Great. And we need teaching. We need community. Prayer. Encouragement. I go to church, and sometimes I go to small group. I pursue people, to a mild extent. But I don't really get much of any of those things these days... not in the ways that i'm imagining I should...as a part of the body of Christ. Now...this is partially my fault, part of a hole that I dug, a bed that I made. But I really really really wish it were not this way. I don't have any answers to this. I just want to start by observing...getting it out there for me to see. Then perhaps I can begin to think of an answer.

More thoughts: Jesus
Ive been reading John. Really, why read anything else? Ever? And I love it so much it hurts. I just read the part right before Jesus washes the disciples feet...and it says:

Now before the Feast of the Passover, Jesus knowing that His hour had come that He would depart out of this world to the Father, having loved His own who were in the world, He loved them to the end.

Can you believe that!!!!! Incredible. Incredible! Right after this verse is the verse where he wraps the towel around his waist. Then later on he asks them if they understand what it is that he has done. In washing their feet. He tells them to love each other. He calls it a commandment. Then later on, He says that He, Jesus, and his father, God, will come to us, and make their home with us, if we will keep his commandments. I think that this whole concept, that happened here, with this section of the bible, is phenomenal. Right before this whole ordeal he has just raised Lazarus. What is going on... He raises the dead. Then he cleans dirt off of feet. Because he loves us. He would do anything for us. I want to be like that. I want to know him. I want to love you.

Found this during lunch.