I just remembered...

"Sometime after this, I just drank the rest of the Bulleit because HELL."

and my day became infinitesimally better.

It's monday and I am 27 years old.

I miss everybody and I want to relax and to have fun. I miss anna laura a LOT okay.

I am scared of life a little bit today...trying to not think about it okay.

I like dwelling on small things today like finishing my little baby podunk child classes and Andrea's new song she and Will are working on, and going to the beach and cleaning my house. Okay.

I like thinking about how something Matt did the other day may be the funniest thing I have ever seen in my whole life, bar none. And coffee. I have noticed that I spend a lot of time thinking about coffee. Buying some, needing some, going for some, drinking some, thinkin about making some. Heh.

I do NOT want to think about 4 years from now, or the USMLE pass rate of medical schools. I do NOT want to think about how I need $400 in 2 days. I do NOT want to think about broken people. I definitely do not want to think about when I go home at night and am too tired from not thinking about things all day to do anything...

I'm about to get a shot of hope right now, here in a sec, when I take a moment to ask for it...