Today-
is a new day, of Greatness, and New Beginnings.
Today it rained, and it was cold, and my life is clammy.
Dreams exist in my future that are so beautiful, so magical, they cannot even be imagined.
I am utterly not interested in waking up tomorrow.
People change. they can. they do. Even me. Even anybody.
We are all stuck in a mud pit of status quo deadness. is there a remedy for that?
The Spirit sets us free. We soar in creativity, we communicate, we share the glory given us.
When I open my mouth and speak, the whole world wonders what those sounds mean.
I have all I need in Jesus.
I have never felt more alone.
He died and rose that we might have LIFE.
Why don't I feel it? Why can't I find it? Why the hell does it come and fucking go?

Don't come up with a plan, a list of actives, a training ground for abundant life. Fall to your face, let go, embrace death.
Feel death, because then you will long to be alive again, you will see the filth and smell the rotten stinking flesh around you and scream for your life, beg with violently shaking hands for Him to lift you out of the decaying carcass of your flesh and take you not to the surface but to the stars. Only the stars will be far enough away from where you were, what you finally realized. So breathe deeply there, in that pit, and ask yourself what the hell you were thinking when you let yourself get used to that smell.

"Arise, shine, for your light has come, and the glory of the Lord has risen upon you."
He never lies, does he? His name is truth...