When the going gets tough..

My heat is broken at my house. Funny how after silver place two years ago, and grainger last year, I told myself that I didn't care if I had to f-ing STARVE, I was not going to be cold. End of discussion.

And here I am. Standing straddled over Samantha's gas heater to type this. Ridiculous.

As you can see, in order to study I need my buddies Starbuds, Jack, and Sampson lined up and in position. Its not just physically being cold...it like the opposite of thriving. Its like, making it. Just barely making it.

I have my down northface boots on, a t-shirt, long underwear shirt, and fleece on, and I've finished the pictured whiskey... and I'm still cold. Hey. This is the tough getting going.

Watchin me get ready for work.

Oh, did I mention he is the only cat in the house these days? Apparently Negrito is much happier at the smoky boys house. And Patrick here put his little paws around my neck this morning for the first time in 3 months. Here's to the changing tides.

incredible.

So i've been listening to Achtung Baby. It blows my mind. Every song. The feeling, the music, obviously I can't recreate that here, but I would if I could. If you know these songs.. sing them in your head for a minute and really feel them. Incredible.

I'm gonna run to you, run to you, run to you,
woman be still

I'm gonn run to you, run to you, run to you,
woman be still




(This song.. like a creed... so true, so heartbreaking, the truth.)

Did I ask too much - more than a lot
You gave me nothing - now it's all I got
We're one, but we're not the same
Well we hurt each other, then we do it again

You say: love is a temple - love a higher law
Love is a temple - love the higher law
You ask me to enter - then you make me crawl
And I can't be holding on to what you got
When all you got is hurt




(Incredible! So friggin' amazing!)
And you can swallow, or you can spit
You can throw it up, or choke on it
And you can dream - so dream out loud
You know that your time is coming round
So don't let the bastards grind you down
No, nothing makes sense - nothing seems to fit
I know you'd hit out if you only knew who to hit
And I'd join the movement
If there was one I could believe in
Yeah, I'd break bread and wine
If there was a church I could receive in
'Cause I need it now

Now!

I am registered for classes next semester. I am taking Microbiology and Anatomy and Psysiology II at the SAME TIME. I will just have to be like, hibernating. Seems like I have always found a way to have a life and do exorbitant amounts of school at the same time... I am relying on these old trusty skills to be used once again. How thrilling. Its like, living life on the edge.
Things I am excited about today:

• Going to Nashville and NCY in 3 weeks and 1 day.
• Finishing this semester. With A's.
• Lincoln.
• Christmas. I love love love it. I will have decorations.
• The thought that perhaps Negrito will go to live with Nick and Matt.
• John Job's friend in NYC who can get us tickets to Broadway shows.
• My grass, in my yard.
• Becoming a nurse practioner, PA, or MD.
• Ginger bread latte's are back folks. STARBUCKS.
• Lookin' cute today, haircut, blue coat.
• That my boss buys Aquafina water bottles, of which I may have as many as I like. Yeah water!
• Art. I love art, I miss art, and I am tired of letting stupid people define it for me. No more.
• Large earrings.
• Music. Wrote a song (no words) last night. Really love it. Want to play it and never stop.
• Whoop- whoop!!

I told Sam I had something interesting to tell her as we were gmail chatting the other day, but that I would have to tell her later, because I had to go. She wrote back, "Now! Now! Now! Now!"
It was so funny.

Work is good today.

Absolutely LOVING IT.

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you guys got to see this. make sure you read down a couple pages. HA!

Which wouldn't be so awful...

I feel like maybe when I slide the papers across the counter I will just break into a million little pieces and scatter out over the floor of the city county building.

YES.

We just won... a really big case. One that would have broken my heart over the unfairness of the legal system if we had lost... One we worked on with another attorney, and he came in, and everybody yelled and yelled, and it was great. Seems like this doesn't happen enough.
The president of the knoxville Bar called this morning to congratulate us... so awesome...

I worked on this one by recreating the scene of the accident with words... it took me a while, and I feel so utterly convinced that this car accident was not the fault of the person, (who almost died,) but rather, the fault of the State, and i just COULd NOT be more happy that we won. Shew.

Heh.