tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-344055642012-01-16T15:44:10.145-05:00Vast open spaces And a place where Trains run on a one- way track.nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.comBlogger1511100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-56570361788908625252012-01-16T15:44:00.000-05:002012-01-16T15:44:10.153-05:00

BGN LAME BLOG POST. Srsly. So cold outside. Hate the cold. Hate it, hate the gray, hate having no fireplace set, hate having no hatchet, hate having no couch, hate having no Cameron. Hate having no Patrick, hate having no hubcap, hate having no money. Negative money, today actually.  Now I feel guilty for complaining.  Fuck it. This is why I don't write blog posts unless I am feeling dramatic

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-67051700099187352142011-12-20T11:04:00.000-05:002011-12-20T11:04:05.215-05:00

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One: Cold air, pale blue light, glints of sun on the frost everywhere, I'm functioning on auto, got to get to work, car's broke driving the Tahoe can't find an ice scraper. My old standby, the check card, scraping the frozen hard frost off the windshield, I come around to the side, my hand lifted to apply, flash. Through my mind goes the knowledge that if you reveal only part of an image, if the

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-70652932591285369542011-12-12T16:53:00.000-05:002011-12-12T16:53:40.134-05:00

have i mentioned i need a job? tuesdays and thursdays. need it. want it. don't know why this is a relevant blog post. perhaps someone living in knoxville will see this post after trolling the internet and comment here and offer me an interesting low-key high-paying job on tuesdays and thursdays. don't ever let your dreams die.

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-26920452427497776102011-12-05T16:56:00.004-05:002011-12-05T16:59:00.403-05:00

I have always been able to feel things, sense things about the environment that I am in, and even the environment inside myself, and in others. As long as I can remember I've been able to see things that other people couldn't and know things that other people didn't know. Jordan and I were close enough growing up that she knew that I knew things...it wasn't until we were probably 10 and 11 that

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-23586726849061513382011-11-28T15:29:00.002-05:002011-11-28T15:48:56.667-05:00

You have never sat with perfect intimacy and watched one you love and have given yourself to die in your arms. Made all the worse by physical health the death of the mind, the heart, of light itself, fading slowly but undeniably out of eyes that you have bet your life on living, instead, dying, right in front of you, as you stare into them from inches away. The light fades, as you watch. You die

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-64221513924258809542011-11-23T10:57:00.000-05:002011-11-23T10:57:46.767-05:00

I'm sitting here at my desk, in my office, at work. I have a tall to-go cup of Haitian coffee that Cameron made for me this morning. When we woke up, we moved around each other silently, trading spots in the bathroom, assessing the day, the light, the temperature. I got ready for work... black pants and a scarf, yellow shirt. Finally I made it into the kitchen, eyes open for the first time. I

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-2251930438854072422011-11-21T16:31:00.000-05:002011-11-21T16:31:01.381-05:00

Admidst rampant self-directed accusations of adolescent narcissism, I wonder sometimes with gravely furrowed brow whether or not, somewhere out in the wide world, there is someone like me. Kept me up half the night.

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ITEM: I will learn to knit if it kills me, any respectable person knows how to knit. ITEM: So Jordan does this thing. When Lincoln has already/is currently doing something he should not be doing...and its too late to get to him to stop him...like, he's pouring dirt out of a pot onto the porch. She has this tone. She says, in this tone, like, its too late and its so sad and over already that i

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-29556675710285521312011-10-14T02:59:00.000-04:002011-10-14T02:59:40.216-04:00

Sitting here on the 4th floor of the nap park hostel in bangkok. I recommend it, if anybody ever comes. Its super posh...kind of shocking really. Everything is clean and sparkling and stylish... gardens and espresso and computers and tile and poured concrete and white linens and gardens and smoking spots and sitting areas and candles and dark wood everywhere. Oh and a bunch of fucking hipsters,

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-46951941638827231972011-08-25T03:22:00.005-04:002011-08-25T03:24:48.146-04:00

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-12849724850125455162011-08-10T16:16:00.003-04:002011-08-12T11:03:34.922-04:00

LIST of FEARS I started with just LIST but then realized the list in my mind was specific, so i changed it. 1. Art show this friday night. I am scared to death and regretting oh so much the decision to do music what in the HELL was i thinking really? I have two (2) paintings/drawings to make before tomorrow night. Let me repeat that. Before tomorrow night. No bd tho really, I mean my art show

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-53077639236794273052011-06-27T16:44:00.000-04:002011-06-27T16:44:56.389-04:00

I have just begun to delve into these photos from the wedding. And can i just say. If I find one more where some random groomsman is looking at the FOREST instead of at me I will personally hunt him down and bring regret, deep abiding regret, to his life FOREVER for that moment when he chose to not look at the fucking camera.

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-91665675967814150952011-06-09T11:09:00.000-04:002011-06-09T11:09:00.396-04:00

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-47392476440135568152011-06-09T10:11:00.000-04:002011-06-09T10:11:12.189-04:00

I tend to feel more positive in the mornings, but: This morning I got up, fan whirring over my head went and got my shoes opened the door and went outside kinda misty out there and I got my watering buckets watered the flowers and the basil and the potatoes and the succulents then out to the garden and I watered the peppers and the tomatoes and the watermelon and cantaloupe and the squash,

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-23366591447369676052011-04-29T11:26:00.000-04:002011-04-29T11:26:24.538-04:00

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-70332607004150604562011-04-18T11:24:00.000-04:002011-04-18T11:24:10.273-04:00

its interesting that Republic Parking hires a person, usually a woman, to stand out in the weather next to the little awkward gate  at the entrance to the parking garage in the bowels of my office building to simply say, "Good morning!" to every person that rolls down their window to swipe their overpriced parking pass before zooming up 3 floors to park and start their workday. I am filled with

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Today has been so freakin' depressing! Its kind of ridiculous. What with the damn grayness, and the rejection, the fears, and the hormones. Of course. omg I did pray i DID but even so and even with- I am hurt today because someone doesn't want me- and maybe they shouldn't, and maybe i wouldn't either if i was them- somehow that has not helped I think it would help if someone did, i know this

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-75735276269600495472011-03-09T11:24:00.001-05:002011-03-09T11:27:41.481-05:00

today about all this ash business. Its so lovely and dark and gray and so very foggy outside...its seems nice to think of Jesus and repentance and ashes and all that...I want the stuff on my forehead! I can't believe I have to wait till 5:15 for it. BUT Really what in the hell? Special repentance day? What about yesterday? Special fasting days? What about next fall when you are in a serious

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-57060959843735829222011-02-22T19:04:00.000-05:002011-02-22T19:04:14.762-05:00

started reading Mountains Beyond Mountains today. Oh Lord. Ya'll do it, you'll enjoy it. And it's real inter-esting. They got it at that there amazon.com, I hear tell.

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Today is that same day that comes every week somehow intrinsically designed to make me feel awful. I have no strength left (did i ever) with which to face the possibilities of relationships. There is not enough courage or faith, not enough gumption or confidence, not enough lust for adventure left in my soul to warrant me trying. Or to warrant even being around, really. Likely that I should

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-71217334882001095862011-02-08T17:21:00.000-05:002011-02-08T17:21:04.366-05:00

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Sometimes, (all the time) when i am thinking about it, (consciously) I feel very alone. (Like I am pretending at life, like the notes and pictures pinned on my wall are mocking, like the forest where there is no one to hear the tree fall, like I must be louder and more colorful to even be able to see myself and believe that I am real, and that I matter.) Tonite in particular no one knows what I

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-8719149251776364152011-02-02T13:13:00.000-05:002011-02-02T13:13:51.443-05:00

It's a grey, cold day in Knoxville, I tell you what, groundhogs notwithstanding. I'm on the phone with the Sevier County Sheriff's Department, speaking with the sweetest little lady...she's having trouble locating the incident report I need. She has "gone to look." I appreciate organization, order, planning, logistical successes, jobs well done, determination, obstacles overcome and problems

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This is all like, a weird time for this. Seein' as i am leaving work in 22 minutes to frantically rush around doing laundry and packing and food for all ing and going to Haiti tomorrow. But I want to post something I ran across on teh internets. I googled "reasons to be pro-choice" while sitting here this afternoon, because i want to do some general sociological digging, and find out what the

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-30770555850672583522011-01-07T09:31:00.000-05:002011-01-07T09:31:14.220-05:00

Impromptu trip to Haiti. Leavin' tomorrow. Cam'ron has extra seat on plane. Granola bars Shoes Camera Jeans Passport Cash money Drive to Alabama Pray i guess huh Oh damn, some damn bug spray! Shew. Gonna help in some cholera clinics. Gonna be in PAP for the one year anniversary. Gonna meet some doctors. You all pray for me please?

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I miss you all. So anyhow this morning, it was really filthy mcnasty out, gray and raining and yucko. I kind of liked it and mostly resented it. Then supposedly it got nice, which has not been verified, i repeat, this has not been verified, because I am still currently on the twenty-first floor. I’m leaving soon, to meet my bud for a beer, which is gr&, and to bum a smoke from him, which is

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-60560187146169941942010-12-10T11:33:00.001-05:002010-12-10T11:33:35.671-05:00

This time of year really is fabulous, isn't it. I'm so glad I'm not going to miss it.

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Live at The Banks House from United Pursuit on Vimeo.

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The part where you wish you didn't have to breath never goes away i guess. I don't remember what it was like to trust life or even think for a bit that the bridge you were standing on wasn't made of glass. 

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-11808043469145224802010-11-08T23:29:00.001-05:002010-11-08T23:29:57.114-05:00

I hope you die a horrid and painful and miserable death. Today was unbelievably blech. Mostly for reasons that I can’t talk about here, which is why i never blog anymore, cause i can’t talk about anything, here. Gah. Retardando. I’ve been studying for a chem test 2morrow, electron configs and their prospective 3 dimensional shapes. Its all very complicated. If I were to have it explained to me,

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-53023513008771511292010-10-21T09:56:00.003-04:002010-10-21T09:56:45.747-04:00

Hey guys.. Read my blog, why don't ya.

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-32843537165482560682010-10-13T16:04:00.000-04:002010-10-13T16:04:45.047-04:00

Things that are good/i like/ppl should like/are encouraging/are cool: New paintings Old North Abby. It's a cool church. Quantum Physics. It's interesting and hurts my brain Gray tights with a little lace-like pattern Andrea and Will-they are so funny! and they understand me pretty well Going to India Blogs about street fashion I am entertaining the idea of taking Cooper from Jordan and Luke.

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I love the ny times. Seriously? It’s so cool. If you want to be awesome, get a subscription for the weekends. Then go out and sit somewhere where ppl can see you, get a cup of something delicious, like plain coffee from Java, roll a smoke, sit outside in the clear october sun, and read it. Yup, pure awesomeness. (shout out- JPH, except the smoking, you are not that cool.) So lame weekend last

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-53560251142090854062010-08-13T12:50:00.000-04:002010-08-13T12:51:25.893-04:00

BLOGGING via TYPEWRITER.: Do You Suffer From One of These Writing Maladies?52hearts:sealegslegssea: travors: (Via AnnieAtkins & Nathan Bransford - Literary Agent) Yoda Effect: Difficult to read, sentences are, when reversing sentences an author is. Cart before horse, I’m putting, and confused, readers will be.Overstuffed Sentences: An overstuffed sentence happens when a writer tries to pack too

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and some reasonably fresh folgers. Do you guys (that have been there) ever have moments when you are homesick for Great Britain? I know that sounds a little weird...but every so often, I feel this way. It's like, over there, the light is different, the flowers are different, and the tea tastes better. It's combined for me with the smell of vanilla and the idea of walking in the rain, and not

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And lord if I'm not lonely and bored as hell. Irregardlessly.Earlier today I watched my brother's face, as he stared up at his computer, mixing a song he tracked yesterday. He had the same look on his face he had when he was 5 years old, building a cardboard box garage for his matchbox cars. So concerned, so intense. He is just so precious. I guess seeing that look on his face probly made my day

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-16665808333669488612010-07-10T17:06:00.000-04:002010-07-10T17:07:47.867-04:00

this is a test:TESTDamn i wish I knew stuff about the internet.

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I keep thinking about all that I will do if I ever have any dad-blamed money. First and formostly, a trip with Chlo to anywhere we want for as long as we want. Perhaps to stay in a hotel in France with elaborate wallpaper, perhaps to see the pyramids, or possibly just to stay in Dublin for a week and do nothing at all but get a tattoo and listen to music and drink. Ahem.

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-12971449306108770082010-06-09T11:43:00.002-04:002010-06-09T11:43:50.922-04:00

Sitting here at work crying due to having just read Chloe's blog. Don't do it. I'm telling' you.

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-70306771568934008152010-05-03T15:37:00.002-04:002010-05-03T15:38:41.745-04:00

"Sometime after this, I just drank the rest of the Bulleit because HELL."and my day became infinitesimally better.

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I miss everybody and I want to relax and to have fun. I miss anna laura a LOT okay. I am scared of life a little bit today...trying to not think about it okay.I like dwelling on small things today like finishing my little baby podunk child classes and Andrea's new song she and Will are working on, and going to the beach and cleaning my house. Okay.I like thinking about how something Matt did the

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-53685155423969223762010-04-22T20:26:00.004-04:002010-04-22T20:46:47.544-04:00

A) I am applying to med school.B) I am applying to med school in the land pictured above.Lets all hope for the best now. I am still praying a lot about it... but in my heart I already feel like applying is the right thing to do. It would be something of a miracle if I got in, as the school would need to waive my pre-requisites of Chemistry and Physics. Pros: a measly $4,000 per semester, no need

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-83251031267198178002010-04-07T15:16:00.003-04:002010-04-07T15:23:52.617-04:00

This is the immune system, in a nutshell. My professor has a penchant for diagrams. Lord help us. This is what the board looks like on any typical night of A & P.

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Okay. Let's just discuss how target is more tempting than, I dunno, Brad Pitt drenched in dark chocolate carrying a case of dom perignon on his head while offering me plane tickets to Fiji. I mean, how does ONE store harbor ALL 7 of the deadly sins? It's like the dollar bin draws me in like an invisible force. The bag and scarf section? Kryptonite. I really just can't go there anymore.Mon at 8:

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-41333553521347179012010-03-17T16:03:00.001-04:002010-03-17T16:04:52.547-04:00

He's related to me. By blood. He is half stuff like Luke and half stuff like Jordan. Can't you tell?

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-4748652707641124842010-03-17T15:31:00.002-04:002010-03-17T15:36:44.849-04:00

Yeah I am going to the David Bazan show tomorrow night at the Grey Eagle with Anna Laura. Yeah we are driving there by ourselves. Yeah we are going to stop in the middle of the mountains for any promising photo opps. Yeah we will drink beer before the show. Oh yeah we are going to wear really attractive things. And probly make up. Oh and yeah we will get coffee in asheville as soon as we get

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-18546490589682009382010-03-12T15:54:00.003-05:002010-03-12T16:14:29.149-05:00

that it is going to be warm soon. It is cloudy today, which is even more depressing than usual because it is so close to being warm. But soon... soon it will be warm and the sun will shine for as long as you want it to, and then maybe a bit more. I am hereby declaring that I will spend as much time at the mountains this year as I want to, and then maybe a bit more. I declare I will read

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0:16 AM me: WHAT are you doing. 10:18 AM okay fine. forget it. 10:20 AM Jordan: sorry! working on business taxes :( me: eew. Jordan: and somebody is squeaking in the living room. me: WHAT spank him! 10:21 AM Jordan: he just wants to be RECOGNIZED. me: oh blah blah SPANK HIM! 10:22 AM Jordan: he just wants to be HEARD. me: well. you tell him you heard him. and then SPANK

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-17230004308612325172010-03-05T17:01:00.000-05:002010-03-05T17:03:09.613-05:00

and my hair was doing this.

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Watching the snow fall on my car, out the wooden front windows of Java. Last night I found myself wrestling between the good and the bad in life, wondering again if it is worth it. The bad is so bad! I was wrestling with my aches- i hesitate to even speak of things like that here. I guess I don’t know how. Anyhow, final conclusions I came to: 1) The best thing you can do in life is love.

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-16262710918729530412010-02-17T15:43:00.001-05:002010-02-17T15:43:17.346-05:00

I miss Jordan at work.

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Its tuesday, feb 16, and i don't know if any of you knew, but its suPPOSE to be snowing right now and my three grueling classes that start in 28 minutes are suPPOSE to be cancelled. I took a bunch of tests last week, 3 of them, and then the pre-nursing admission test on saturday. I did good on everything, so for the first time in my life, while preparing my homework sheets this morning for class,

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-4737937929583975732010-02-08T09:22:00.003-05:002010-02-08T09:27:45.892-05:00

Drawings I did, once upon a time.

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Sometimes I just get tired of fighting everything being about loss. Sometimes I just get tired. I have to fight, on facebook, because there are people I can't talk to, people who can't talk to me, who are lost. But still there...I have to fight at java, or in the old city, or in Knoxville, because there are people I can't talk to and who can't speak to me, people I used to love, I still love.I

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By: Faith Amelingmeier

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UPDATE:Due to having to re-add A&P II to my schedule, (that is long sad story) I now work till 5:30 on Wednesdays and Fridays.

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Church at TCAK was SO GOOD on sunday! My brain and heart are filled to overflowing with desire to be brave, humble, honest, etc for God! These are bits of what Jamie Goldenburg taught, and my personal story in kind:Important trials in everyone's life that happen between them and God:1. Fervor (Separation)2. Reliance (Circumstances)3. Honesty4. Humility5. Courage6. Greed1. Fervor Abraham was asked

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My thoughts are many and scattered. Went to the tuesday night small group last night. Brittany E began crying and praying for Haiti... Michael K then asked God to help us give up our self-consumed burdens so that we could feel His burdens..for Haiti... Rachel B prayed then that the church in the u.s. of a. would wake up and heed the call to adopt orphans from haiti, thousands and thousands and

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So weird. Last week, i got divorced, 100,000 people died, and i read about mother teresa and how she struggled. shew. I heard from God, about some important things, I made changes in how i live, that are hard, that hurt, and I feel like a different person. I play the electric guitar now, (shout out: JDC trucking), and drop classes because I need to be less busy so that I can spend more time

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-32964539391018218952010-01-15T09:42:00.004-05:002010-01-15T09:54:46.073-05:00

http://www.boston.com/bigpicture/2010/01/earthquake_in_haiti.html

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-45074345892632743602010-01-11T15:56:00.001-05:002010-01-11T16:00:53.914-05:00

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I am sitting at work and have tissue paper stuffed up my right nostril. It is now 12:54, and the phone has rung maybe 4 times, but none in the last 2 hours. I have searched craigslist for piano stools, I have looked for Avett tickets on ebay, I have read way back into the ancient status updates on fb, like, to yesterday. I have had echinacea tea, I have had a bottle of water, and I have had

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-37520752849820870812009-12-21T11:08:00.002-05:002009-12-21T11:44:00.774-05:00

I did make A's in all my classes, with one hand tied behind my back. Yes I did.Wonder how its going to work to do clinicals and work at the same time. Wonder how its going to work when Sam moves out, which she is doing, btw. Wonder how its going to work to be alone at new years and christmas again, for the 3rd year in a row. Wonder how its going to work to take microbiology and anatomy at the

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-60591270012750886842009-12-09T14:09:00.002-05:002009-12-09T14:10:29.604-05:00

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-20059533665187838422009-12-07T11:47:00.001-05:002009-12-07T11:48:43.573-05:00

It was too cold for his feet.

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The ole rusty heat pump is givin up the ghost.The new shiny heat pump is on its way. And for only $2000. Great.I love owning a house. I do. I love it.Worst case scenario: I quit nursing school, get a full time, low paying job in order to pay the mortgage, say good bye to my future, and then sell the house at a minimal loss due to all the repairs that keep having to be made. I get depressed and

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-21941039449671535652009-11-28T19:17:00.002-05:002009-11-28T19:23:11.530-05:00

My heat is broken at my house. Funny how after silver place two years ago, and grainger last year, I told myself that I didn't care if I had to f-ing STARVE, I was not going to be cold. End of discussion. And here I am. Standing straddled over Samantha's gas heater to type this. Ridiculous. As you can see, in order to study I need my buddies Starbuds, Jack, and Sampson lined up and in position.

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-23112450116084171322009-11-18T11:53:00.003-05:002009-11-18T11:56:05.709-05:00

Oh, did I mention he is the only cat in the house these days? Apparently Negrito is much happier at the smoky boys house. And Patrick here put his little paws around my neck this morning for the first time in 3 months. Here's to the changing tides.

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So i've been listening to Achtung Baby. It blows my mind. Every song. The feeling, the music, obviously I can't recreate that here, but I would if I could. If you know these songs.. sing them in your head for a minute and really feel them. Incredible.I'm gonna run to you, run to you, run to you,woman be stillI'm gonn run to you, run to you, run to you,woman be still(This song.. like a creed... so

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-27556370371922176572009-11-11T12:04:00.004-05:002009-11-11T12:19:49.558-05:00

I am registered for classes next semester. I am taking Microbiology and Anatomy and Psysiology II at the SAME TIME. I will just have to be like, hibernating. Seems like I have always found a way to have a life and do exorbitant amounts of school at the same time... I am relying on these old trusty skills to be used once again. How thrilling. Its like, living life on the edge.Things I am excited

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stuffhipstershate.tumblr.comyou guys got to see this. make sure you read down a couple pages. HA!

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I feel like maybe when I slide the papers across the counter I will just break into a million little pieces and scatter out over the floor of the city county building.

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-66363245220836150092009-11-02T09:57:00.002-05:002009-11-02T10:14:12.547-05:00

We just won... a really big case. One that would have broken my heart over the unfairness of the legal system if we had lost... One we worked on with another attorney, and he came in, and everybody yelled and yelled, and it was great. Seems like this doesn't happen enough.The president of the knoxville Bar called this morning to congratulate us... so awesome...I worked on this one by recreating

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-39999693587553967192009-11-02T09:32:00.002-05:002009-11-02T09:32:51.668-05:00

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BORED! AND HUNGRY!

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nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-79786210864726131392009-10-26T10:24:00.005-04:002009-10-26T10:34:02.260-04:00

uses these substances, Cigarettes Age of first use: 8 y.o.Alchohol Age of first use: 2 y.o.Marijuana Age of first use: 10 y.o.and now he's in trouble with the law. Wonder what the hell his parents have been doing. Sorry, I just get fired up here and have to let off the steam somehow. I'de like to knock some heads. Or love them, I guess. Shew.

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-38611993889360220572009-10-21T09:45:00.002-04:002009-10-21T09:50:24.870-04:00

MICHAEL BRYAN DONALDSONIN RE: JUDICIAL REVIEW-PERMANENCY PLAN HEARINGPlease be advised the permanency plan hearing in reference to the above named child has been scheduled for November 3, 2009 at 8:30 a.m.SEVIER COUNTY JUVENILE COURTIsn't this just so sad? i think it is. shocking that something so vital in this child's life has been reduced to the words, "permanency plan". I wish I could be every

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-79537813156306564732009-10-16T14:51:00.002-04:002009-10-16T14:55:51.739-04:00

So... the Nyquil test? Well. Apparently I have made a 100 on it. Which, according to the Professor, was last done in 1985. The whole class is p o'd because I ruined the curve. Hee-hee! The joy!

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Don't ever take NyQuil the night before a midterm. Just don't do it!

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Pretty good coffee here. Best damn brownies I've ever eaten. Some real mad clients, who didn't get updated enough. One Aquafina bottle, half empty. Tennessee October sunshine streamin in the big office windows. The hills of south Knoxville, the river, even Baptist hospital looks pretty today. Calhouns. The sunshine is gleaming off of the place where the 3 rivers meet. I want to enjoy this world

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-20818834837860234042009-10-02T15:26:00.002-04:002009-10-02T15:30:20.547-04:00

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Coming in to work this morning, my mind is feeling scattered about. Chloe, my actual mind is faffing about. Yes it is. I need to narrow it the hell down, and concetrate. I did not do so well on my big time serious lecture test. I got the equivalent of a 89.1 on this teacher's scale. This is not an A. This is like a U, but its a B. U stands for UnAcceptable. I have another test in this class

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-59115796295660189282009-09-26T10:05:00.002-04:002009-09-26T10:09:42.956-04:00

As I sit in the kitchen, at the bar, with my cup of coffee, bobby d's DESIRE blairing in the background to make up for the absence of people on this saturday morning, Patrick is running from one end up the dining room towards the kitchen and leaping over the top of Negrito who is lying on the ground, and to the end of the kitchen, only to turn around and do it again. He skims the air right above

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-58480743842468457952009-09-25T12:00:00.003-04:002009-09-25T12:13:04.233-04:00

Chai latte's from the french cafe on gay street: ummmmm good.Things I am excited about this morning:Patrick. He's real cute, he speaks a funny language to me that I understand, he is picturesque pretty much ALL the time, he is resourceful and likes to attack Negrito. YES. Oh, and he comes to greet me in the morning, runs to my bedroom door, jumps on the bed, meows, and promptly snuggles down

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Lo, and be- HOLd! My folgers coffee is pretty good this morning!! Shock and awe.So. Think I got four or five out of fifty wrong on my test. And then I think I got two bonus questions right. So. Sort of okay I think. I wanted to get 100. But I couldn't remember that "lateral" was the opposing term to "medial". Shoot.But I sure as hell knew what "hyaline connective tissue" was, and I recognized it

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-2883829443959109012009-09-17T22:42:00.000-04:002009-09-17T22:43:54.985-04:00

i'm a lot sad tonite, but i'm pretending i'm not.

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-69617106990559503282009-09-11T11:25:00.002-04:002009-09-11T11:26:21.693-04:00

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-41482892342769758502009-09-11T11:01:00.001-04:002009-09-11T11:01:39.472-04:00

"I have days that begin with a makeshift hopefulness and then run into the ground, and I have days in which I remember something true in the morning and write it on my arm so that I’ll know what to do when I get lost. Which I will. God, like a parent in the mall, writing down His information on my arm so that I remember who I belong to when I run away and am accosted by strangers."

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-7489070673559330112009-09-09T13:42:00.003-04:002009-09-09T14:11:50.793-04:00

So I started school again. I didn't think I would ever be starting school again. I mean, it was in the back of my head somewhere..but I didn't really think it would ever happen. Funny how there is a sense, when you are in school, that there is a big, slow ball rolling towards something. Towards being done. And even though I just now started, and have a long, long ways to go, I feel the ball. I

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-68019317971757800582009-09-04T15:31:00.002-04:002009-09-04T15:32:23.039-04:00

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-31935083998631964332009-08-31T12:56:00.004-04:002009-08-31T13:03:18.005-04:00

me: sweetie. Sent at 10:04 AM on Monday Jordan: sweeties. Sent at 10:05 AM on Monday Jordan: watcha doin???? me: nutchin mutch.is T still over there? Jordan: no she didn't stay. Ralph is in a meeting. Sent at 11:31 AM on Monday me: huh. Sent at 11:33 AM on Monday Jordan: so...we shold trade out helping each other get settled into our houses. me: sounds cool. but its hopeless. Jordan:

nataliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13597509390635689128noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34405564.post-84958319826100943172009-08-18T19:04:00.001-04:002009-08-18T19:06:51.628-04:00

I want more than anything in the world to post pictures. But I can't figure that out at the moment. I don't have much to say...but i just wanted to tell each and every one of you that I am thinking of you and...well...i hope shiloh loves his school. Love.

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