Considerations

Watching the snow fall on my car, out the wooden front windows of Java.

Last night I found myself wrestling between the good and the bad in life, wondering again if it is worth it. The bad is so bad! I was wrestling with my aches- i hesitate to even speak of things like that here. I guess I don’t know how.

Anyhow, final conclusions I came to:

1) The best thing you can do in life is love. Selfless, pride-less love. Give yourself away. Love people, love God by loving people, know God by loving people. Let your one passion be to love and serve. Your main request. Your goal, your 5 year plan. Your meditation and your constant prayer. Its the only thing that will feel fulfilling, the only thing you will be proud of, the only way to avoid mistakes, to “cover a multitude”, if you will.  Its they only goal worth having.

2) Being alone is not so bad. Paul was right. When you are in a relationship, you experience all kinds of- shit. It takes a lot of effort. And time. And consideration. And angst. And- and- and- lots and lots of your life is spent being wrapped up in “it” and also your current quality of life while in the midst of “it”. You think about it, feel about it, talk about it. You live it. But in the end, it really does not have that much to do with item A, featured above. You can use it to do A, but you can do A just fine without it. So. Be happy if you are in a relationship, and be happy if you are not. Focus on A.